Okay writers, this one’s for you. We’re an insecure bunch, aren’t we? Most of us are so emotionally volatile, we go from laugh-out-loud gregarious to self-isolated hermit faster than a schizophrenic on crack. And only a writer can turn a compliment into a downer:
“Hey, I read your latest blog post. I totally loved it.”
Oh, no. That’s the last one. I know it. I’m bone dry here. What’ll happen when this guy figures out I really can’t write and that was just a fluke?
And an opened door into a dungeon entry:
“I’d love to have you join our team.”
Deadlines? Expectations? What if I let them down? Which blog post, article, or interview made them think I’d be good for this job or ministry position and what’s going to happen when they figure out I’m not who they think I am?
We read so much about platforms, branding, networking, and marketing, that it’s easy to get overwhelmed. Writing is no longer just about writing. In today’s technological age, it takes much more than flowery words to get yourself heard. You need strong marketing skills, a dash of big-picture thinking to stay one step ahead of the fray, a psychology degree to navigate all the PR requirements, media and industry connections, and enough stick-to-itness to stand up against the ever-flying obstacles hurled your way. It’s easy to get lost amidst the noise, but running in circles won’t do you any good. So what do you do when you can’t see above the ever-swirling storm clouds? You retreat, and rest. And remember this battle is not yours. And you don’t have to do it alone.
“Relax my child, this really isn’t about you. Nor is it up to you,” our Father says, as He lovingly takes our hand. “Be still and know that I am God. Keep your eyes on Me. Trust my plan, and the life jacket I provide. Yes, the waves are strong. Yes, the wind is loud. But My hand is stronger, and I will never let you go. My power is displayed in your weakness. And remember, this is not your story. It never was. It is my story, and I will pen it through you.” And then the Creator of the universe leans down and whispers in your ear the story that will be woven in a million hearts as He draws His beloved into His warm embrace.
2 Corinthians 3:5-6 “Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God. He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant—not of the letter but of the Spirit, for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.”
Ah, Jen, you are preaching to yourself again, aren’t you?
(I do that a lot, myself….)
Lol. I write what God is doing in my life. And He’s been telling me this for some time (and will probably need to remind me daily), but I’ve been having a tough time translating it to the page.
Wow Jen, you are seeing straight to my heart! Although I haven’t reached being published and having an agent at my side, I face those same fears. Is anyone reading my blog? Am I reaching anyone? What are others thinking when they read my words? Sometimes I think it is satan who is making sure we beat ourselves up so we just give up! Thank you Jen for your encouragement and inspiration to this girl who just wants to write=)
Big hugs, Robin. And yeah, you’re blog touches many! Seeing your faith in action has spoken volumes to me these past few months.
Why is it so hard for me to remember that not much is in my control? That God holds it all in HIS hands? I think I need to put sticky notes all over my walls and my body so that maybe, just maybe, I’ll remember things like that when I really need to!